Maktub – A Poem by Ian Lepkowsky

Maktub

Sometimes I feel so alone
I’m trapped in this void
I’m trapped in this hole

I wish I felt whole
But I feel incomplete
Looking in the mirror
Brings disappointment and grief

Today is a sad day
Today I must weep
Let out from inside
The painful secrets I keep

I wear my smile like a mask
And when it slips I grab the flask
Still it is no simple task
This image weighs a ton

This isn’t me but who am I?
I’m buried under all the lies
Who you see’s who I despise
I make them laugh
Inside I cry

There’s no one by my side

I need a friend so desperately
To save me from my misery
My heart cries out in agony
Longing only to be free

Free from pain
Free from sorrow
Free from fearing
For tomorrow

And Yet

I won’t accept this as my fate
I know that one day I’ll be great

I won’t be chained
I will be free
I’ll dive in deep and pull out me

I’ll cling to hope
I’ll persevere
After all I’ve been through
All these years
I can’t forget the strides I’ve made
I’ve come too far to let it fade

With every step I gain more strength
I’ll walk the distance, go the length
No holding back, I’m letting go
The words are written, it will be so

Ian Lepkowsky

Ian is a passionate writer searching for personal transformation through unconditional self expression. He's also a philosopher, artist, and creator that's interested in video games and food and stuff.

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